Dear Mama

I write this today both with tears and a smile. Today May 5th is my Mommy's birthday. I woke up wondering where my emotions would take me and if I could consciously keep them in check. Thoughts of our last experiences together some clear and some cloudy swirl around in my mind. So much time has passed since our last hug or since I've heard your voice yet I'm still so in love with you. I appreciate everything you were and are to me with the time we had.

In honor of Mother’s Day I wanted to introduce mommy shout outs

To my Mommy who I know loves me from heaven, I love you forever.

To my Auntie (she's my other mom) who has loved me through my foolish teenage years, you mean the world to me. Thank you for teaching me to fall in love with myself before trying to love anyone else. You taught me my worth and made it clear that I deserved the best. You gave me LOTS of lessons on cooking and cleaning……maybe a little too many…lol. You've had an everlasting impact on my life, thank you just isn't enough. I love you forever!

To ALL the mommies out there, you rock!

Share the impact your mom has had on you. I look forward to reading your feedback.

Danelle

Body Scrubs By Rebeca

Yay, guess what came in the mail?! My body scrubs by Rebeca Lemon Burst body scrub.

First let me say the product was packaged ever so perfectly. From the frilly papers in the box that matched her theme colors to the applicator stick that came with my product. No this wasn't the first time I had the pleasure of using her products, but it was the first time I purchased from her website. The body scrubs by Rebeca website was very easy to navigate. On the site you will find information about the owner and her love for skin care. She also has detailed descriptions beside every product making choosing the scrubs that works for you just that easy. I placed the order with no hiccups and the product was received in a timely manor.

When I open the large jar of my Lemon Burst scrub it smelled like just that, a burst of lemon. I wanted to taste it, but settled with applying it to my skin. This product left my skin feeling cleansed and moisturized.

I'm looking forward to using this scrub again and can't wait to purchase another from the body scrubs by Rebecca collection.

Check out her website www.bodyscrubsbyRebeca.com can't wait to hear your feed back regarding this product.

Danelle 

P. S. I wasn't gifted this product nor was I paid for this review..

The Struggle

The blog I Published on 04/23/2015 was such a struggle. I usually publish post by 8am, but I kept giving myself an excuse and didn’t actually post until after 11pm that night. Honestly I was afraid and concerned about what people might think. All I kept thinking was “Someone is going to read this?”

I thought about not positing it, at least not yet. I justified not posting to myself saying “I’m just starting out and this is too deep, maybe I should wait until the readers get to know me a little better.” Then I thought maybe I should wait until my book is published (Yessss, I will speak it into existence) because it will contain further details of my story and will better explain the compounding situations that lead me to thoughts of suicide. All I kept thinking was “Someone is going to read this?”

At about 11pm that night I got into my bed without posting for the day; “Someone is going to read this?” My spirit immediately responded and said “What if someone doesn’t.” Then I remembered that this thing really isn’t about me. I didn’t go through all I’ve experienced and cry all those tears to be silent.

I’ve done many things in my past that I’m not proud of and I’ve been places mentally that should have resulted in my death, but I’m here. So with all the hesitation and embarrassment I thank God for the strength he gave me to finally post. My blog has become an outlet for me, but ultimately it’s for my readers. I’m coming to terms with being transparent in hopes that someone will find hope in my story. It seems improbable at times, but I hope to use this platform to save someone’s life. I will use myself and my story so someone that may be in that same place realizes if I made it through so can you!

Danelle